At some point I stopped (or almost stopped) feeling emotions. I used to be emotional and very empathic, but now I feel almost nothing. I don't even know why: whether it's because I've been stifling emotions for a long time, or because of something else. And it started with the fact that I still had emotions, but I couldn't cry, even when I really wanted to, which contributed even more to keeping everything inside.
I'm afraid that I won't be able to fix anything anymore, as this is really important to me and I would be incredibly happy to leave this state.
I can't go to a counsellor/psychotherapist as I'm underage, and I don't want to talk it through with my parents either. I don't know what to do or if this is permanent.
Advise, if it's not too much trouble. and If you think it might help i would also like to add that you are right about the judgement. i used to judge and condemn myself for my behaviour before, as i could sometimes vent aggression and then regret it for a long time. so i started to try to stop doing that and stifle it in myself. but i just don't know how to "safely" dispose of emotions. anyway, now they are gone and i want them back. можем на русском продолжить, так будет удобней)